Today my husband Charlie and I attended a barbecue for the Hempstead Coordinating Council of Civic Associations. We met new people and got better acquainted with others. The people in the civic associations are majority African American, with some white and a few Latino.
The more I talk to my nonwhite friends, the more I realize how much underlying fear there is in nonwhite people. They fear that they will experience betrayal again from white people. They fear that apparent improvement in opportunities and resources is only cosmetic, because so much has happened behind the scenes to undermine corrective legislation that was put in place by Congress 40 and more years ago.
From all I have read as I continue my research, their fears are reasonable.
Gradually I will find my place in the battle against racism.That's a good thing.
But here's a bad thing: I caught myself thinking that if the tide truly turns against nonwhite people, I have the option to rise above that tide and float, because I'm white and I can choose to float instead of to go down.
That thought is a sin. Big time. No! If my friends go down, I go down. And if we go down, the United States of America will go down, because the entire idea of America will have been murdered.
May God help me find His ways for me to speak out with my writing, and otherwise act with votes and other civil action to defeat the demon of racism.